24 May Lady Gaga Reveals She Was Left Pregnant After Sexual Assault
Lady Gaga opened up about being sexually assaulted as a teenager, and the lasting impacts of the traumatic encounter.
The popstar revealed the news on Prince Harry and Oprah’s new docu-series on mental health, “The Me You Can’t See,” which is streaming on Apple TV+.
The Assault
In the first episode, Lady Gaga appears as a guest-star and spoke tearfully about how a producer once demanded she strip for him.
“I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off’,'” she said.
When she refused, they told her they were going to burn all of her music.
“And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and then I just froze and I just… I don’t even remember,” she tearfully continued.
The “A Star is Born” actress did not want to name the producer, and explained her reason for keeping him un-named.
“I understand this #MeToo movement, I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not,” she clarified. “I do not ever want to face that person again. This system is so abusive, it’s so dangerous.”
PTSD
The “Born This Way” singer also spoke of how the incident led her to develop lasting trauma.
Years later, when she went to the hospital with complaints of chronic pain, she was surprised to be diagnosed with PTSD. Then in 2016, she went public with this diagnosis. Gaga further opened up about her fibromyalgia in her Netflix documentary, “Gaga: Five Foot Two.”
“First, I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. Then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks after,” Gaga explaned.
She remembered noticing that she had felt a similar sensation before, directly after the assault.
“And I realized it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, at my parent’s house,” she said. “I was vomiting, and sick.”
Following the rape-induced pregnancy, she was “locked away in a studio for months.”
Breaking Point and Recovery
At first Gaga was very private about the abuse, but things came to a breaking point a couple years ago, in 2018 and 2019. Now, she intends to be more open about her trauma and suffering, instead of “locking it away and faking it.”
“I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years, I was not the same girl,” Gaga said.
It got too much to handle and drove her to cancel several concerts scheduled for her Joanne World Tour.
“I used to scream and throw myself against the wall,” the songstress shared. She also opened up about her struggles with self-harm and suicidal impulses.
Even now, at 35, over a decade after the sexual assault, Lady Gaga’s road to recovery remains “a slow rise”.
“The way that I feel when I feel pain is how I felt after I was raped. I’ve had so many MRIs and scans” she said. “They don’t find nothing, but your body remembers.”
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